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Gratitude, and my little dog too
Tonight I got some not so good news. My little walking companion has a torn ligament in her knee that requires surgical repair. Yet in...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20211 min read
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I spit it back
Sometimes I feel so full of rage, I feel I will explode. That I will have to vomit up all the bullshit I've internalized because I can't...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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A day late and a dollar short
Today is Thanksgiving in Canada, and although I truly have so much to be grateful for, I'm having a hard time feeling it today. Today...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20213 min read
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It'sTime
*I wrote this post back in January of this year, and have kept it close to my heart to comfort me and give me strength. I feel that this...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20214 min read
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Musings about Facebook
I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. While I generally enjoy my interactions and am truly grateful to stay in touch with...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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The lesson...?
Find the lesson. Find the lesson?? Maybe I'm not ready yet to find the lesson! Maybe I'm tired of numbing out, staying calm, glossing...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Rage??
Why rage? Because of him. Because "he didn't intend it." He didn't intend it??? What the fuck did he intend? Okay, wait. I'll be...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Rage
On the heels of grief comes another big emotion. Not just anger...rage. Deep down in your soul, seething, violent, white-hot rage. Mama...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20211 min read
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Grief
Grief is such a weird thing. It's so heavy. It weighs down on you and slows down your experience so that you notice every detail. Every...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Monday Church
Been feeling unfocused and restless all day. Fallen into a bad habit of overwhelm. Confusion. Unwilling and unable to make even the...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20211 min read
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The disclaimer
Since the events in Charlottesville I've been watching my friends online both in the U.S. and in Canada grapple with trying to make sense...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20214 min read
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I think I might be a dog...
Did my title draw you in? I hope so! It may seem like a really odd thing to blog about, but hear me out, all will be revealed. A google...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20213 min read
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Flowers and veggies
Tightly furled, in its heart, the flower fears blooming. Fears blooming? How ridiculous. But it does. It is afraid. It feels it should...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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A letter to myself
Anxiety. No. That's not anxiety dearest. That's your creativity. Trapped. It's roiling in your gut like bile. Trapped in your throat...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Valentine's day solo
I spent Valentine's day alone. Well, technically I was with my dog, but the important thing is that I did not spend it with my husband....
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Part 1 - from January - the questions
January 1st I made a promise to myself that I would write more. I would journal, and I would write more on my blog about where I am in...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20214 min read
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Part 2 - from May - the answers
There is no place to "start" this story as it is really a series of spirals curling into each other and overlapping in unexpected ways,...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20214 min read
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On being white
Last week, Ashley Callingbull was crowned Mrs. Universe in an international beauty pageant. Beauty pageants are generally something that...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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Roots, wings and Grandma's buffet
The night before the night before Christmas, my brother and my dad brought over my Grandmother's buffet. This beautiful antique spent...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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At the top of the rollercoaster
"The moment that you feel that, just possibly, you're walking down the street naked, exposing too much of your heart and your mind and...
Cindy Koistinen
Nov 25, 20212 min read
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