The lesson...?

Find the lesson.

Find the lesson??

Maybe I'm not ready yet to find the lesson! Maybe I'm tired of numbing out, staying calm, glossing over my own feelings, being nice, thinking of others first, making peace.

FUCK THAT.

Maybe my anger is totally righteous. And maybe my anger is the lesson.

Maybe the whole fucking lesson is that I have every fucking right to be angry.

Maybe all this love and light stuff is just a way of not looking at the shitty, dark, brutal shit that is hiding in our own shadows.

We seek the light because we are afraid of the darkness. THEY are afraid of the darkness. They are afraid of their OWN darkness. I GET IT. SO AM I.

But no more.

NO.

Why not? Because I WANT TO BE WHOLE.

Embracing your truth means embracing all of your truths - even the dark, violent truths you don't want to look at.

The ones you would rather keep to the shadows.

Those truths that you have been hiding, cloistered away in a deep, dark place inside because you fear them.

They hurt.

They have altered the course of your life.

They have robbed you of your power.

Embracing them feels dangerous. They are seductive - they want you to let them in....to let them live through you. You fear that they will take over - fill you with darkness, twist you, possess you. Make you into this ugly, shrill, angry, bitter harridan. A bitch. A witch.

What if that is the seduction??? What if we've been sold a lie?

Love and light, smile and be happy, thoughts and prayers - this has been sold to us in the guise of being spiritual, being ascended, elevating ourselves. We can't bear to look at these horrors because we can't handle it.

What a load of crap.

Love and light. Thoughts and prayers. Service to others. You are capable of more.

Lovely. All beautiful stuff.

Not my path right now.

MY challenges are to be still. To do for myself. To honour my own feelings and not always put others first.

My path is to not fear the darkness. My darkness.

It's not about opening that door and letting the darkness out. It's about opening that door and letting the light in.

My path is about balance in a world that is fundamentally un-balanced.

Women are powerful. Angry women are even MORE powerful. Do you think that a system that depends on people's discontent to make them buy things wants fully embodied, fully empowered women?

Hell no.

When we embrace all of who we are, all of how we feel, we are powerful. We are already powerful, the patriarchy knows it,

A group of angry, fully empowered women?

Watch out.